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In These Moments, Time Stood Still...

Nicholas Ryan

12/25/2000

12:05 p.m.

Christian Michael

03/31/2002

 

11:13 p.m.

Brandon David

06/25/2004

7:28 p.m.

Mandy Marie

07/30/2008

12:05 p.m.

And Then... It Didn't.

 

 

 

“I stood still, vision blurring, and in that moment, I heard my heart break.  It was a small clean sound, like the snapping of a flower’s stem.” 

Diana Gabaldon   

          It was tough to watch my youngest head off to full-day Kindergarten.  It was at that time that I began to think about what shall become my  future.  When I set out on my journey toward a Masters in Special Education, I had a pretty clear picture of where I wanted to go with it.  My plan was to take my business background, my newly acquired special education knowledge, and open a preschool in my area for special needs children.  This seemed to make sense as I never wanted to be unavailable for my children, this would allow me to choose a schedule that worked for my family.  My plan felt daunting; however, I am a faithful person, and I knew God had a plan for me and I just needed to stay the course and let it play out.

          And play out it did!  My secondary concentration selection was Leadership.  This was a smart choice to complement Special Education given that it focused on the skills and knowledge required to lead a school.  Initially, I tackled a course in leadership to get my feet wet; after all, my previous positions equipped me with tons of experience in that area, so the mindset was familiar.  My first course, EAD 801:  Leadership and Organizational Development, which had a specific application directed toward school leadership, focused on expanding my perspectives on organizational leadership challenges, and thereby pushing me to think as a potential leader in formulating enlightened approaches to addressing such challenges.  The final paper for this course was about how I would be applying and/or extending and/or reflecting upon my leadership in the future as a result of my learning from this course.  This paper, regarding the time/team relationalship as it pertains to student achievement, can be viewed below.  Ending this course with a 4.0 gave me the feeling that I CAN do this, and left me really excited about my new professional direction. 

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          As I continued on my journey, I began to wonder if/when it would become a problem that I am not in a classroom teaching which would have allowed me access to students.  By the time I reached my fourth course, CEP 832:  Teaching Children with Challenging Behavior, my youngest son, Brandon, was really struggling with an inability to focus, hyperactivity, and impulsivity; his grades were beginning to suffer at school, as was his behavior at home.  I couldn’t believe I was in a position to help my son!  This course focused on understanding the psychological and behavioral characteristics of children who are “tough to teach.”  Not only did I learn research-based practices for instruction and classroom management for these students, but the course enriched my knowledge and skills of behavioral problems that are especially challenging in the classroom:  aggressiveness, oppositionality, hyperactivity, and social withdrawal, among others.  For each type of problem, we explored research-based practices that have proven successful in the classroom and applied them to simulated cases using a positive behavior support approach.  As fate would have it, this course required a heavily-weighted project which included:  Identifying a student with challenging behavior; identifying and describing the targeted behavior; observation of behavior; data collection (analysis of the challenging behavior, strategy selection, description, and rationale); strategy implementation report; strategy evaluation.  All to culminate in a final report and PowerPoint presentation.  I was in complete awe of the timing here!  Just as my son began to show the signs, I was able to “unofficially” diagnose him with ADHD, back-up my diagnosis, implement interventions customized specifically to my son, collect the data to monitor his progress, tweak where necessary, and watch my son’s behavior begin to change, his grades improve, and his life become better.  As a mother, experiencing the shift from full hands to a full heart is the best feeling in the world.  Please take a look at our experience  in the documents below...

          Continuing on my journey, our family was dealt a serious blow.  My oldest son, Nick, was diagnosed with an extremely rare blood disorder called Severe Aplastic Anemia which as treatment required chemo, a bone marrow transplant, and eight months of isolation after transplant to allow his immune system to grow.  This eight month isolation period just happened to begin at the start of my son’s 8th grade year and homeschooling was required to ensure he was prepared for his first year of high school.  After all he had been through, he would have been devastated to be held back and not begin high school with his friends.  Once returning from the hospital, it was clear that this wouldn’t be ordinary homeschooling.  Not only did we have a port and broviac catheters to flush and clean a couple times daily, but Nick had difficulty with focus due to all his medications, his stamina was very low, he was depressed, and there were days that he just didn’t feel well overall.  In addition, we spent a lot of time driving back and forth to the hospital for blood work.  Once again, fate intervened!  CEP 882:  The Nature and Design of Compelling Experiences and CEP 801A:  Collaboration and Consultation in Special Education (taken just before Nick’s illness came on) set me up perfectly to help my boy.  CEP 882:  The Nature and Design of Compelling Experiences taught me to think outside the box when it comes to education… find ways to create compelling educative experiences for him.  The job of a teacher is to help students see the dull and ordinary as something a bit more compelling and extraordinary to hold their interest.  When we studied the Holocaust, I arranged private visits to the Holocaust Memorial Center.  Nick couldn’t focus long enough to read, so I would search for movies that pertained to our topic, using the filmmaker as our storyteller.  I arranged private showings in movie theaters to view films such as Unbroken which encompassed a history lesson.  I read books to him and acted out scenes, I found YouTube videos pertaining to almost every topic we studied to create vivid imagery bridging what he needs to know with a means of feeding it to him in compelling ways.  For gym class we would take long walks at the zoo or go swimming at the local pool.  Whatever I could manipulate to make the experience more compelling.  My objective was to always have Nick really experience something.  Like a conductor uses his power to make the orchestra powerful, our job as a storyteller is to awaken possibility in those we teach.  I learned to create an imaginative bridge between the “work of art” and the “work of teaching”... creating an experience that was attention-grabbing and memorable.  CEP 801A:  Collaboration and Consultation in Special Education ~  Collaboration, Consultation and Teaming…  This course not only provided me with the skills related to decision-making, problem-solving, and collaboration related to the education of my son,  but it prepared me to work with the school to develop Nick's Individualized Education Program (IEP).   This plan spelled out my son’s unique learning needs, the services the school would provide and how progress would be measured.   Consultation is “triadic” a third person provided expert advice (Nick's psychologist) as to how Nick may be feeling emotionally and how hard to push him.  Collaboration involved myself and the teachers working together to design and implement programs and interventions.  There was a degree of parity, equality, and shared responsibility between our collaboration, and this partnership made the arrangement effective for the teachers, Nick and myself.  As collaborators, we jointly shared the outcomes, and responsibility for Nick's progress.  Nick had a modified workload (if the rest of the class had ten problems on one concept, Nick had two or three problems).  Nick's teachers monitored his progress, and when the time came, he was ready to head back.  Nick graduated the 8th grade, and was accepted to his high school of choice with an academic scholarship to boot!

          During my time with Nick, he became my sole focus.  Upon his diagnosis, I was registered for my final two courses in my Masters program; however, a couple days after his diagnosis, I had to drop them and focus on saving my son.  One year later, after his chemo, transplant, physical therapy, homeschooling, and ultimately his return to school, I resumed my Masters goal.  It was unbelievably difficult to get back into the swing of things; however, I just had to push myself.  As it turns out, once again, fate intervened.  This course, CEP 804A:  Reflection and Inquiry in Special Education ~ Literacy Instruction, was EXACTLY where I needed to be!  This course focused on the assessment and remediation of reading and written language difficulties.  As with many of my courses, I was to seek out a student with reading difficulties as my protégé.  At this time, my daughter, Mandy, was just starting the 2nd grade.  In first grade she had been placed in the lowest reading group, and hadn’t been assessed in 2nd at this point.  Given that our first project was to assess a student’s reading performance to gather baseline information to inform our other teaching projects, I decided to look at her first.  To my dismay, Mandy’s results reflected:  Independent Reading Level:  Kindergarten; Instructional Reading Level:  First Grade; Frustration Reading Level:  Second Grade (Comprehension was Frustration Level at First and Second Grade).  I couldn’t believe it!  Once again, I am sitting in a position to help my own child.  Our second project was to develop and implement a reading fluency intervention based on our student’s weakness.  Mandy’s greatest weakness was decoding multisyllabic words.  Based on her short-comings, her reading was labored at best as she was working so hard to figure out the words.  Finally, her prosody naturally suffered as a result.  She didn't attempt corrections, she waited for the word to be given, she was monotone in her expression, with no use of punctuation.  Based on her assessment, I decided we would have to start from the very beginning.  I gave intensive instruction in segmentation and blending, vowel rules, phonics and word analysis.  Ultimately, she will be better equipped to decode multisyllabic words, have a better handle on consonant blends and suffixes, and attain a word count per minute (wcpm) fluency rate to boost her to an Independent level for 2nd grade by December of that year.   With my targeted lesson plan, assessments, and progress monitoring graphs, I went to work with her.  The next project was the same except the focus was a comprehension intervention for which I integrated core Reading Apprenticeship routines to invite Mandy into text-based, problem-solving ways of working.  Our final project implemented a writing intervention, related to the comprehension intervention.  In the end, final assessments of Mandy’s progress yielded some pretty amazing results!  Mandy assessed exactly where I had hoped, Independent Level for 2nd grade.  The best part, she couldn't stop reading!  She wanted to read chapter books, she wanted to read everything she could get her hands on!  I even caught her setting up her stuffed animals in a makeshift classroom and teaching them to read!

 

         

"So it is with children who learn to read fluently and well:  They begin to take flight into whole new worlds as effortlessly as young birds take to the sky."  William James

          As an educator, and as a human being, I feel it is our job to inspire other people.  Everyone’s life has special meaning; every breath and every step we take on this earth influences others.  In life, I don’t believe there are accidents.  For me, God has a hand in everything.  Others may say it is the universe; however, the important thing is to be responsive, put your logical self on hold and pay attention to the signs.  No matter how carefully planned our lives may be, you cannot know how that design will be affected by a single random event.  The path I was forging for my future made so much sense, but pretty amazing circumstances drove me in another direction... Something bigger than me was directing my steps, and I’m so grateful I was open to the dance!  My masters' program was an incredibly challenging journey; yet, well worth all the time and effort.  A post-graduate degree has so many benefits whether they come in the form of new opportunities, higher pay, or a mark of distinction. Whatever the future holds for me, it is in fact that this program armed me with the tools to help my children, equipped me to help others in the future, elevated my life and the lives of my children, and ultimately brought me a great deal of personal fulfillment.  For those benefits,  I will be eternally grateful.

 

 

 

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